When Under Ether

The ceiling is moving
Moving in time
Like a conveyor-belt
Above my eyes

When under ether
The mind comes alive
But conscious of nothing
But the will to survive

I lay on the bed
Waist-down undressed
Look up at the ceiling
Feeling happiness

The woman beside me
Is holding my hand
I point at the ceiling
She smiles so kind

Something's inside me
Unborn and unblessed
Disappears in the ether
This world to the next
Disappears in the ether
One world to the next

Silence

All those places
Where I recall the memories
that grip me,
and pin me down.

I go to these places
intending to think,
And think of nothing,
But anticipate.

And somehow,
expect you'll find me there,
That, by some miracle,
You'd be aware.

I'd risen this morning
Intending to break the spell
my longing not to think

I freed myself from my family
I freed myself from work
I freed myself
Freed myself
And remained alone

And in my thinking
I'd steal you away
though you never wanted me anyway

The Hill

Walking up the hill tonight
And you have closed your eyes.
I wish I didn't have to make
All those mistakes and be wise.
Please try to be patient
And know that I'm still learning.
I'm sorry that you have to see
The strength inside me burning.

Where are you my angel now
Don't you see me crying?
And I know that you can't do it all
But you can't say I'm not trying.
I'm on my knees in front of him
But he doesn't seem to see me.
But all his troubles on his mind
He's looking right through me.
And I'm letting myself down
Beside this fire in you.
And I wish that you could see
I have my troubles too.

Looking at you sleeping
I'm with the man I love.
I'm sittin' here weeping
While the hours pass so slow.
And I know that in the morning
I'll have to let you go.
And you'll be just a man
Once I used to know.
And for these past few days
Someone I don't recognise.
This isn't all my fault
When will you realise.

Looking at you leaving,
I'm looking for a sign.